I've been gone for about 20 years? 

But I am not going to recite what I've been doing during my disappearance act. More than ever before, God has been reminding that our lives are constant mysteries. Most of us are walking not knowing what lies ahead, unsure of the "right path".  We diligently try to plan and predict what the future holds, and we rarely get it. I asked God a million times to guide me, to bring me to where I should be, to tell me what I'm supposed to do. But I realised that ain't working. He doesn't tell you because He wants to walk with you in every step of your way. 

I'm lost but I trust.

I'm afraid but I hope.
"I'm not done with you just yet."